November 18, 2020 – July 2, 2021 My relationship
227 Days is Not Forever
A 19,612,800 Second Roller Coaster
I wrote this poem June 30 at 9:42 PM
You take all the energy from me
When I’m working
But then I have to
To see what’s going on
To find in the mind what the eyes can’t see
You cannot hide from me
If you needed space to breathe, you could’ve said that
Have I not been open enough ?
Transparent enough ?
Loving enough ?
With you for you to feel comfortable with me ?
When we talk about the future do we see the same thing or are you just..
Agreeing with me ?
Saying everything I wanna hear
Using my honesty and the things I hold dear
Stealing my energy. The energy I need to be the best me so I can fix the broken pieces in you.
Or at least try to.
But you resist it at every turn
You say it’s what you want but lip service doesn’t appease me where action is required
We’re so differently wired
Maybe I shoulda believed her when she said you were a really good liar
Maybe I shoulda left back when that red flag was on fire
My heart was cold tho
And I was desperate for something to keep me warm
But the thing about fire is there’s a thin line between relief and obliteration
I look at you in your sleep and kiss your face
Imagining all the beautiful things we’ll do when we get out of this place
But then I close my eyes and in my dreams you’re a disgrace
I thought you were my rider
We talked about creating life because
I thought you were a lifer
I don’t know what you are anymore.
Your Potential Forever